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I love random things for it is my life. My life is like a rose garden. But all rose gardens have bees and thorns!

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

More of my stuff

                                                                                Secrets and  Demons
I used to feel a
prisoner in my own heart.
battered and abused to discern.             
                                I didn’t know what to
do, what to say, where to go, how to live.
                I had been burned, crushed,
broken, smashed, torn, bruised, used and thrown out.
 Most of the time I didn’t
even love myself.
                Acceptance is a rare thing in
our world.
Being gentle, sweet,
kind, loving, nice, charming, and understanding is nowhere to be found.

                My very soul has receded onto a shell
of uncertainty.

Hoping, Dreaming,
Wishing for a safe haven of comfort and joy.

                Not trusting, only manipulating. How long will my masks last?       How long will this one last?   Is there more unseen pain?
              More pain? More pressure? More patheticness?
 Where is reality? Where
is the truth?
                Where are the sunsets on the
beach? The tapping of the rain? The field of flowers? The velvety sand?

Where is the one that
will never leave me to fray?
                I’m at the end of my of my road.
The only thing I meet
is emptiness.
                The secrets that I was told has
been a minefield on my heart.
Torn on how to handle
it, I stepped in the danger zone.
                Can I disarm it? Find equivalent
weight? Will someone take my place?
Sacrifice it all? Can
one love without loving and still feel nothing? Or will my demons send me to
the depths of hell?
                Where is my Prince? Or has my
soiled history saturated my title and name?
My would-have-been Savior.
What’s his name? Did it start with R? With B? Or T? Guess now I’ll never know.
                My thoughts fly fast, yet
timelessly fall.
With a picture for a
memory. And a star to guide my way.
                I can feel their wings to save
But the legal binds cannot
be broken.
                My head is filled with dead
My heart with emptiness.
                My eyes with the pale green
dullness of insanity.
still I am stuck with my secrets and demons.

How can you dare?
To her, other flowers, compare.
Her beautiful colors, How they entwine,
In the sunlight, she will shine.
She expresses a passion, that you will feel.
She has a heart, that pumps soo real.
Her thorns, from pain, keep out the worst.
So filled with joy, she just might burst!!
Her motherly instincts came out as well,
To birds and squirrels, she gives a home to dwell.
Her buds, the prosper, As children grow,
As young ladies, with red skirts to show.
With tips pursed with delicate care,
With grace, she dies, no burden to bear!! 

* A dream i dreamed, it felt so real, am i still asleep??
 -Do i? Did i? Should i feel? Do you? Did you? Is our love cheap?
 * I heard your call and turned around, but didn't see you there.
 -I looked and searched, up and down, And sought to know you care.
 * A quick breath i take, your hand i feel moving down my spine.
 -Is this all fake? Your heart, is it only ALL of mine?
* Whats this pain in my heart? A hungry tiger, untame.
 -Its the feeling of us being apart_that sets my love aflame.
 * What's that,white, blindingly bright tunnel that i see?
 -Is that you, my love, at the end; waitong just for me?
 * I think it's you................... I know it's you! I race to get to the end.
 -To feel your lips, to be in your arms, i know our love you'll defend.
 * But as i get closer you look unsure; like you, yourself had started to doubt.
 -You say"Under preassure, our love will break, I dont want to try it out."
 * I look at you in Horror "But dont you understand?
 -If we give in to their Big talk; you, me, our love will disband."
 * You fell into their worries, listened to their lie.
 -You said it MIGHT not happen,that you didnt want to try.
 * I screamed. I pleaded. I begged. I cried.
 -You looked at me with sorrow, and all you did was sighed.
 * "Thats it"? I whispered in a low murderous tone.
 -You replied "My heart was only ever yours to own."
 * With those last words you walked away, without one single glance back.
 -I crashed to the ground, broken pieces of hope; i tried to feel your love, but only felt the lack.
 *  Where to go??????  Who to see????? What to do??? ???? I feel soo very broke!!!!
 -I looked around for some type of assurance, but alas,            I AWOKE!

The Price Has Been Paid
With love in their hearts, they fiercely fought.
Yours, mine, his, hers, our freedom they bought
Our freedom, our power, our liberty, paid.
When their lives, in danger, on the line they laid.
“For God, their country, for bible,” they said,
For freedom of belief, now they are dead.
They lived, they died, they spent, they gave,
For freedom, for America, for her people to save.
Their family, their friends, together they wept,
While in their graves they silently slept.
“Make way for liberty!!” they proudly cried,
Made way for liberty, and many had died..
How selfish we sometimes all can get
When asked to sacrifice we only fret.
“How much will it take?” we think “what can be ours?”
When around us, our veterans, on face with pride bear the scars!!
They fought, some died, putting heart and soul in during wartimes,
Against the dictators, the evil and all the vile crimes.
“what to think! ! !”, you ask yourself. All I can say is.
Think of the soldiers, what they’ve given, what they’ve spent to pay,
For the liberty, the freedom, all the things you own,
All the while America’s wild oats are sadly being sown.
Please America, please citizen, please wake up and see,
They’ve fought and they’ve died, but they faithfully love Thee!!!

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

If I persevere, I can go the distance. With a little bit of magic and any happy little thought, you can fly. Sometimes you only need the bare necessities. You may find your reflection different then who you want to be, but you can push through it. You can accept anyone, and ask to be our guest. When it comes to love, appreciation is key, that’s how you know your love is true. It’s okay if I wanna be like you. And that when you wish upon a star, your dreams may come true. No matter how long you’ve been apart you can ask, can you feel the love tonight? It is possible to go from zero to hero. Sometimes you just have to kiss the girl. Even if you come from two worlds, you are still able to find love. There is no life and death to things, just the circle of life. Home is where your heart is, even if it’s under the sea. Whoever you are, there will always bea whole new world. To get things done, you just have to whistle while you work. Love will always conquer no matter the case, and forever, you’ll be in my heart. You have to realize a dream is a wish your heart makes. You have to believe to reach your goal until the end, and remember I just can’t wait to be king. To love someone, they don’t have to be part of your world. If you looks hard enough you can see the colors of the wind. It doesn’t depend on someone’s strength or brawn because I’ll make a man out of you. Remember to always be prepared. Sometimes you just have to trust a friend like me. Everyone has their own beauty and the beast inside them. Love will find a way. And your never to old to kick back and say, Hakuna Matata.  ----this is something i found and i love it!
1. Real name: HannahRose

2. Nickname(s): Peanut,

3. Favorite color:

4. Male or female: F

5. Elementary School:
Saguaro Hills

6. Middle School: Gateway
Baptist Academy

7. High School: ALA

8. College: University
of Phoenix

9. Hair Color: Blond

10. Tall or Short:

11. Sweats or Jeans:

12. Phone or Camera:

13. Health freak:
just normal

14. Orange or Apple:

15. Do you have a
crush on someone: YES

16. Eat or Drink:

17. Piercings: ears

18. Pepsi or Coke:


19. Been in an
airplane: yes

20. Been in a
relationship: yes

21. Been in a car
accident: Not a serious one

22. Been in a fist
fight: yes

23. First piercing:

25. First award: young

26. First crush: idk

27. First word: not

29. Last person you talked
to: nephew

30. Last person you
texted: Alex

31. Last person you watched a movie with: alex

32. Last food you
ate: biscuit with honey

33. Last movie you
watched: GI Joe

34. Last song you
listened to: country

35. Last thing you
bought: idk

36. Last person you
hugged: alex J


37. Food: panda

38. Drink: cola

39. Bottoms: skirts

40. Flower: rose

41. Animal: wolves,
owls and tigers

42. Color: Purple

43. Movie: idk

44.Subject: literature


(Put an X
in the brackets if yes)

45. [x] fallen in
love with someone.

46. [ ] celebrated

47. [x] had your
heart broken...

48. [ ] went over the
minutes/texts on your cell phone.

49. [x] had someone
like you

51. [ ] got pregnant.

52. [ ] had an

53. [x] did something
I regret.

54. [x] broke a

55. [x] hid a secret.

56. [x] pretended to
be happy.

57. [xxxxx] met
someone who changed your life.

58. [x ] pretended to
be sick.

59. [ ] left the

60. [x] tried
something you normally wouldn't try and liked it.

61. [x] cried over
the silliest thing.

62. [x] ran a mile.

63. [x] went to the
beach with your best friend.

64. [x] got into an
argument with your friends.

65. [x] disliked

66. [ ] stayed single
for 2 years since the first time you had a boyfriend/girlfriend


67. Eating: nothing

68. Drinking: water

69. Listening: dad
talking on the phone

70. Sitting/Laying: kinda

71. Plans for today: church

72. Waiting for
tomorrow: work/packing


73. Want kids: yes

74. Want to get
married: yes

75. Career: guidance

76. Lips or eyes:

77. Shorter or
Taller: taller

81. Hook-up or
relationship: Relationship

82. Looks or
personality: BOTH??!!

EVER Part 2:

83. Lost
glasses/contacts: Yes

84. Snuck out of a
house: yes

85. Held a gun/knife
for self defense:yes

86. Killed somebody:

87. Broken someones
heart: idk...

88. Been in love: yes

89. Cried when
someone died: yes


90. Yourself: YES

91. Miracles : yes

92. Love at first
sight: haha yes

93. Heaven: yes

94. Santa Claus: Of
Course. Where else would my presents come from??

95. Aliens: Other
life out there. You never know

96. Ghosts: no


97. Is there one
person you really want to be with right now: yes!!!!!!!

98. Do you know who
your real friends are: yes

99. Do you believe in
God: yes and in his Son Jesus Christ